bluebutterfly
01-22-2010, 08:08 AM
:confused:I don't know where to start....i've always known something wasn't right ,I didn't want to know and didn't want to think it was me, it couldn't be, but something inside feels wrong.
Today I decided to search for symptoms and I have come across something thing that all I can describe as my life's biography.
Paranoid personality disorder.
As I have been reading, I 've started feeling sick, I could feel a panic attack comming on and all I feel like doing is screaming and throwing up.
I can't believe that the words on the computer screan describe me to a T.
I have been like this for so long and thought it was everyone else.
It's Friday night and I tried to call a doctor to make an appointment but they are all closed till tomorrow.I can't tell my family as they are the one's I distrust the most.I can't stand to think that they will judge me when they find out , I can't face that right now.
I have to get this out as I feel like I am going to explode!I feel shakey I know this is me and it scares me.I don't want anyone close to me to know.
Today I decided to search for symptoms and I have come across something thing that all I can describe as my life's biography.
Paranoid personality disorder.
As I have been reading, I 've started feeling sick, I could feel a panic attack comming on and all I feel like doing is screaming and throwing up.
I can't believe that the words on the computer screan describe me to a T.
I have been like this for so long and thought it was everyone else.
It's Friday night and I tried to call a doctor to make an appointment but they are all closed till tomorrow.I can't tell my family as they are the one's I distrust the most.I can't stand to think that they will judge me when they find out , I can't face that right now.
I have to get this out as I feel like I am going to explode!I feel shakey I know this is me and it scares me.I don't want anyone close to me to know.