drew_71
03-24-2010, 10:16 PM
Recently I feel like I'm going crazy, I just can't explain it. I have a running commentary in my head, telling me what I'm doing, and when I'm doing it wrong, but its my own voice, I just can't seem to stop it.
I think I'm hearing voices, but I'm not sure, because its my own voice, but I don't feel like its my thoughts, and I keep urging myself to do things that aren't normal like punch and smash things. I also keep getting episodes of hyperactivity, but then the slightest thing will bring me crashing back down, for example earlier I was bouncing off the walls cleaning and making dinner, but then when I thought the food had gone wrong I got stuck in a downward spiral of negative thoughts and got really really depressed. Then because I felt like I was over-reacting I felt worse about myself. Now I'm up again even though I should get some sleep as I have to be up early. I also keep seeing things out the corner of my eye, like flashes of things creeping around and I'm getting quite paranoid sometimes. Most of the time I tell myself nothing is there, but sometimes I feel like there is something there that is trying to get me. I had an appointment with an NHS psychiatrist today, and I thought that would be good, because I want to get better and not feel like this, but I found my self downplaying everything when I spoke to her, I suffer from depression and anxiety, and am on meds for that, so I kinda just tried to put everything down to that. But when I left the part of me, or not me, I'm not sure, that does the commentary was telling me that I did well, and that its good I didn't tell her everything. I feel like my own mind is my enemy and I don't know what to do. Could really do with someone to talk to about it, maybe someone who has experienced similar as I'm pretty freaked out by it all. :(
I think I'm hearing voices, but I'm not sure, because its my own voice, but I don't feel like its my thoughts, and I keep urging myself to do things that aren't normal like punch and smash things. I also keep getting episodes of hyperactivity, but then the slightest thing will bring me crashing back down, for example earlier I was bouncing off the walls cleaning and making dinner, but then when I thought the food had gone wrong I got stuck in a downward spiral of negative thoughts and got really really depressed. Then because I felt like I was over-reacting I felt worse about myself. Now I'm up again even though I should get some sleep as I have to be up early. I also keep seeing things out the corner of my eye, like flashes of things creeping around and I'm getting quite paranoid sometimes. Most of the time I tell myself nothing is there, but sometimes I feel like there is something there that is trying to get me. I had an appointment with an NHS psychiatrist today, and I thought that would be good, because I want to get better and not feel like this, but I found my self downplaying everything when I spoke to her, I suffer from depression and anxiety, and am on meds for that, so I kinda just tried to put everything down to that. But when I left the part of me, or not me, I'm not sure, that does the commentary was telling me that I did well, and that its good I didn't tell her everything. I feel like my own mind is my enemy and I don't know what to do. Could really do with someone to talk to about it, maybe someone who has experienced similar as I'm pretty freaked out by it all. :(