ihaveangerinme
04-06-2010, 10:53 PM
Hi everybody, i am 18 years old and i am having a terrible problem dealing with the unending question in my mind which is: can antipsychotics, antidepressants damage your brain?
This is a little analizing of my situation:
I was 12 years old, forced to be hospitalized at the pediatric clinique. All because i lied to my mum that i was going to commit suicide. Because of that, i was forcely given the antipsychotics, called risperdal. I had no bipolar disorder or any kind of mental disease. I just showed some strange behavior, because i was educated that way by my parents. We have terrible family problems. They taught me that kind behaviour, they designed my personality that way. Always arguing for no reason, yelling loud, being aggresive, violent, verbal abuse... I just copied that, and since it was all source of the home living education, it didn't mean it was something wrong with my brain, i was just taught that way, not brain damaged. I don't know how psychiatrics take these things. And of course the antipsychotics didn't change a bit of me. I was taking risperdal for 3 months. Next years i was taking them for 6 months . Later next year, i was forced to take them 11 months. Then later after that i was taking the drug called torrendo q-tab for about 3 weeks. Later after that i was taking zypralex and torrendo q-tab same time for 8 months. Later, long after all of that, they forced me to take antipsychotics called prazines. I am definitly sure it was all taken for nothings, it's just these psychiatrists, brainless and heartless, forcing a young child which is in the developing state of brain to take pills which "engage" with your brain.
So you see, i was taking tons of these antipsychotics, i even took zyprexa about twice in my whole life and the next they it was like i didn't even know what's happening around me. I took all of the antipsychotics i was taking like 3 times a day and that's frequently. I am extremley scared if my brain and mentalness and mind is at it's natural state. I was always normal, just not educated right. I really don't want to have my brain damaged because of these medication, i couldn't resist. It's a terrible uninformed question inside me, and it doesn't pass a single without me thinking about it over and over. I can't even sleep at nights because of this. So here are the questions, I really need the answers for:
1. Can antipsychotics, neuroleptics, antideprressants... damage your brain?
2. Do these drugs leave permanent consoquences in you? Do they make a somekind change in your whole brain and whole body,muscles, nerves... like forever?
3. If you stop taking all of the mental drugs and it passes a long time after that, does your brain and the rest of your body, return to the state of never ever taken a single mental pill?
4. Can your mental abilities be reduced because of taking those drugs?
Please answer these questions, so i can find peace in me, even if the answers are negative, please inform me with the truth, i will deal with it somehow and keep it maximum at my current state, even if i was innocently damaged by these forcely given drugs.
This is a little analizing of my situation:
I was 12 years old, forced to be hospitalized at the pediatric clinique. All because i lied to my mum that i was going to commit suicide. Because of that, i was forcely given the antipsychotics, called risperdal. I had no bipolar disorder or any kind of mental disease. I just showed some strange behavior, because i was educated that way by my parents. We have terrible family problems. They taught me that kind behaviour, they designed my personality that way. Always arguing for no reason, yelling loud, being aggresive, violent, verbal abuse... I just copied that, and since it was all source of the home living education, it didn't mean it was something wrong with my brain, i was just taught that way, not brain damaged. I don't know how psychiatrics take these things. And of course the antipsychotics didn't change a bit of me. I was taking risperdal for 3 months. Next years i was taking them for 6 months . Later next year, i was forced to take them 11 months. Then later after that i was taking the drug called torrendo q-tab for about 3 weeks. Later after that i was taking zypralex and torrendo q-tab same time for 8 months. Later, long after all of that, they forced me to take antipsychotics called prazines. I am definitly sure it was all taken for nothings, it's just these psychiatrists, brainless and heartless, forcing a young child which is in the developing state of brain to take pills which "engage" with your brain.
So you see, i was taking tons of these antipsychotics, i even took zyprexa about twice in my whole life and the next they it was like i didn't even know what's happening around me. I took all of the antipsychotics i was taking like 3 times a day and that's frequently. I am extremley scared if my brain and mentalness and mind is at it's natural state. I was always normal, just not educated right. I really don't want to have my brain damaged because of these medication, i couldn't resist. It's a terrible uninformed question inside me, and it doesn't pass a single without me thinking about it over and over. I can't even sleep at nights because of this. So here are the questions, I really need the answers for:
1. Can antipsychotics, neuroleptics, antideprressants... damage your brain?
2. Do these drugs leave permanent consoquences in you? Do they make a somekind change in your whole brain and whole body,muscles, nerves... like forever?
3. If you stop taking all of the mental drugs and it passes a long time after that, does your brain and the rest of your body, return to the state of never ever taken a single mental pill?
4. Can your mental abilities be reduced because of taking those drugs?
Please answer these questions, so i can find peace in me, even if the answers are negative, please inform me with the truth, i will deal with it somehow and keep it maximum at my current state, even if i was innocently damaged by these forcely given drugs.