Please help

[givemehope]

Dont know where to start really long story but will be as brief as i can. This time a year ago i was happily married and over the moon with my little boy. We went on holiday last year and when we came back my life changed almost overnight. For some stupid reason i went on a dating website and to cut a long story short i cheated on my husband which i never ever would have done it is so out of character for me, the worse thing is he found out forgave me and i kept doing it. I did not enjoy just felt i had to do it. My relationship with friends and family has changed i dont enjoy anything i used to. My flat is a total state and i just cant motivate myself. My standards have slipped with my son i.e what he eats veg etc. My husband has just lost his mum and i have been a complete bitch to him this week to the point my marriage is now lost forever. I wanted to help him through it but just say really awful things and act in a way that is just not me. I hear songs and think there is a meaning in them just for me. There is so much more i have not put as too long to put it all. I saw a physciatrist who said its just anxiety but all he did was look at his watch the whole time he with me. Would really appreciate some advise before i lose my mind totally.

[admin]

It is difficult to say whether you have serious mental illness from what you mentioned.

Why did the psychiatrist think you suffer from anxiety? Do you feel anxious about a lot of things over past few months or so? What treatment did the psychiatrist suggest for you?

How do you feel in yourself over past few weeks?

[Ecoleman24]

Sounds like you could have Borderline Personality Disorder or possibly Bipolar Disorder. I say this because both disorders are characterized by the individuals engaging in behavior that is either seen as "way over the top" or behavior they don't seem to be in control of.

I would definitely suggest changing doctors if the best care he could offer was to look at his watch off and on while he was supposed to be listening to you and offering counsel.

I would also like to add that you may have no disorder at all. A lot of people find themselves acting out when they are overwhelmed or are in situations they feel they have no control over. You also may want to consider your true feelings for your husband. He may be a wonderful man but that doesn't mean you love him, people fall out of love all the time. It is something to consider.