bobgarden
08-27-2009, 12:44 PM
l had a quick look through the forum and made up my mind there and then l need to speak with others that will understand how l feel at times.
l know we are all vulnerable to all sorts of mental ailments and physical ailments as well,because l believe we are all born on this earth as imperfect humans.But to mental disorders there is a stigma attach to it,which l find very hard to speak to someone that l know many just want to laugh at you,but do not want to understand the pain one goes through from that person suffering from a mental illness that is not curable.
l have been suffering for 40 years approx,l believe is bipolar.which has stopped me from doing the things in life l would love to do.
l haven't been diagnosed with this terrible disorder,because l have fooled the doctors by drinking so l can relax when speaking with them.They said they cannot find anything wrong with me.Which l do understand how difficult the doctors work can be when a patient is trying their best into not letting the doctors see the signs.But l feel so embarrassed about it,that l just go to drink to avoid the pain of sitting there all tense up with my mind blanked out due to the tension.
l could go on and on.But first l want to introduce myself as Bobgarden.My interests are gardening and having full respect for nature and the reason why nature is so important for our promotion to a well being.l have been married now for 28 years[that was hard work,but still together]l have no children[because of the fear of it could be hereditary what l have]l do have a beautiful lovely dog l so much adore and has been spoilt[she deserves it]My hobbies are,swimming and gardening,walking with nature and listening to the sounds of nature..many others.
l also must point out l now live in Turkey,a place called Akbuk on the coast of the Agean sea.A beautiful house with pool and only one minute to the sea.You would think this would cure my anxiety.No it hasn't,because of the many problems that have been put apon me while l was living here through severe corrupt practices l wasn't aware of.This has left me with 2 nervous breakdowns in the 5 years l have been here.
My intentions are,is to move back to Britian and see if l can start al over again.What makes me feel better in myself is knowing l have honest and trustworthy prople around me that do not use my disorder as a weapon against me.The best feeling one can achieve in life is feeling comfortable in mind and body with the people your amongst,whether their strangers or not,l find that difficult.
Oh and another thing.sorry for the waffling,l tend to get carried away.please feel free to ask me anything you like.
thank you for reading my intro
l know we are all vulnerable to all sorts of mental ailments and physical ailments as well,because l believe we are all born on this earth as imperfect humans.But to mental disorders there is a stigma attach to it,which l find very hard to speak to someone that l know many just want to laugh at you,but do not want to understand the pain one goes through from that person suffering from a mental illness that is not curable.
l have been suffering for 40 years approx,l believe is bipolar.which has stopped me from doing the things in life l would love to do.
l haven't been diagnosed with this terrible disorder,because l have fooled the doctors by drinking so l can relax when speaking with them.They said they cannot find anything wrong with me.Which l do understand how difficult the doctors work can be when a patient is trying their best into not letting the doctors see the signs.But l feel so embarrassed about it,that l just go to drink to avoid the pain of sitting there all tense up with my mind blanked out due to the tension.
l could go on and on.But first l want to introduce myself as Bobgarden.My interests are gardening and having full respect for nature and the reason why nature is so important for our promotion to a well being.l have been married now for 28 years[that was hard work,but still together]l have no children[because of the fear of it could be hereditary what l have]l do have a beautiful lovely dog l so much adore and has been spoilt[she deserves it]My hobbies are,swimming and gardening,walking with nature and listening to the sounds of nature..many others.
l also must point out l now live in Turkey,a place called Akbuk on the coast of the Agean sea.A beautiful house with pool and only one minute to the sea.You would think this would cure my anxiety.No it hasn't,because of the many problems that have been put apon me while l was living here through severe corrupt practices l wasn't aware of.This has left me with 2 nervous breakdowns in the 5 years l have been here.
My intentions are,is to move back to Britian and see if l can start al over again.What makes me feel better in myself is knowing l have honest and trustworthy prople around me that do not use my disorder as a weapon against me.The best feeling one can achieve in life is feeling comfortable in mind and body with the people your amongst,whether their strangers or not,l find that difficult.
Oh and another thing.sorry for the waffling,l tend to get carried away.please feel free to ask me anything you like.
thank you for reading my intro