trail-runner
08-29-2009, 02:53 PM
Hi...I'm posting this here in anxiety because well..this causes me anxiety.
I seem to procrastinate a lot about doing the things in life that will help me succeed for fear of hurting my parents feelings, specifically my dads if I accomplish more than he did. I'm not sure why I feel this way, it's probably every parents dream for their children to be successful and probably even more than they are. Something is stopping me though, I've watched my dad struggle in life with some odd social skills and a lot less backbone than I have. I feel when I do things that relate to me standing up for me and doing what I know is good for me I feel guilty and hold back...like a little voice is saying "Dad couldn't get this, why should you...that's not fair to him"
I feel like emailing him and just putting it out there that I feel this way, but it would probably be insulting...
I wish I had a new way to think about this, I'm really good at solving and working through things on my own but this one just has me stumped.
Thanks for anyone's input.
I seem to procrastinate a lot about doing the things in life that will help me succeed for fear of hurting my parents feelings, specifically my dads if I accomplish more than he did. I'm not sure why I feel this way, it's probably every parents dream for their children to be successful and probably even more than they are. Something is stopping me though, I've watched my dad struggle in life with some odd social skills and a lot less backbone than I have. I feel when I do things that relate to me standing up for me and doing what I know is good for me I feel guilty and hold back...like a little voice is saying "Dad couldn't get this, why should you...that's not fair to him"
I feel like emailing him and just putting it out there that I feel this way, but it would probably be insulting...
I wish I had a new way to think about this, I'm really good at solving and working through things on my own but this one just has me stumped.
Thanks for anyone's input.